Bash

Okay.

I just feel like I'm going to explode.

These past few weeks have been super stressful.

From that man's suicide to annoying fights between Jon and I to budget cuts to tests.

Wednesday. I walked into the lunch and learn and I knew something was wrong because A) Joyce wasn't there and B) tension in the air was unmistakable. After everyone was done eating and on their way, Laurel called Rose and I in her office to tell us the bad news. The Government has decided not to fund the social programs at the CMHA so we will be closing for good.
I wanted to vomit right then and there. I was in total shock. I think I still am. I remember how crappy I felt when all the social programs had to close for a month or two in the summer time. I was in a stable position then, but what about all the people now that have nowhere else to go? I feel like I along with everyone else who are at the bottom of the system, have been spit on by the government, its disgusting.

Jim Morton's words were "Its a good program but theres just no money for it" this is coming from people that bought 12 laptops on december 1st for "office use" what kind of office needs 12 laptops?

I'm heartbroken. These people are like family to me.
I'm writing my "Success story" for the mental health newsletter, explaining how I worked my way through the mental health system and how I got where I am today! I plan on writing a very long letter to my local MLA for this soul purpose of explaining that you cannot throw somebody who has been rejected by society, spit on by the public and tossed around the whole system. These are people who sit and have coffee in Tim Hortons and get thrown out for loitering after 15 minutes opposed to others who can sit there for a whole hour. Its completely disgusting.

I don't mean to bash another local program but when Terry asked what will these people do now that were closed and they said they had a different program in town. Laurel and I both agree that that wouldn't be best for the people who attend our programs because they are vulnerable and people that go to this other program take advantage of vulnerable people like that. They don't fit in there.

I'm heartbroken.

I'm so scared, because when I get in slumps, the CMHA is one of my main supports, going to all their programs they offer helps me socialize with people dealing with the same stuff I am. Its disheartening..

Laurel and I will be spending the whole week cleaning out our side of the building, we plan on giving away stuff like kitchen appliances and stuff for the art program and stuff. No point in storing it.

Laurel is going back to her very old position and I will have a new job in the office.. on the employment side.. I'm not looking forward to it. I'm a people person, not a numbers person.

Anyways, so if I'm testy with you or anyone this week, I'm very soon.