Change

Well, that didn't last long.

I can feel another slump coming.

This past year, I've learned so much about myself, one of those things is that I don't like change. Change contributes to a large portion of my anxiety and depression whichever flares the most.

One of the big changes I have to deal with is Whale going back to university or changing my in daily routine. Well, Whale has a job now and he'll be working late at night for me. Doing a job that I think is less then safe. I know I'll be up, worrying about him all night until he comes back, and I know I'll feel like crap because I'll be alone from 4pm til 12am. I don't like being alone at night, I usually can't control my paranoia or anxiety by myself at night. I can feel hard times over the next few weeks and I dearly hope that there are no bumps along the way.

I missed posting here because I'm sick with a stupid cold. I took half the week off from work and Laurel gave me the today off anyways because the office is closed. I'm thankful for that. I've been feeling down since I don't like staying away from people now, so thankful for friends who came over and kept me company and so thankful for friends far away like Kate! Who hosted a fun room on mario kart wii and we all skyped. I'll talk about this later on.

My eyes are finally adjusting to my glasses! It still feels a little weird because everything is a lot more clear to me now, or brighter and colourful :]

Okay, back to Kate.

A very special friend hosted a room on mario kart wii this week. I was so sick and so worried I couldn't play but I stuck it out. I was super shy to get on skype with random people I don't know. She hosted a room, I talked a little bit and made a mistake of backspamming this guy, which led to him targetting me for the next couple races but I didn't care because he was making me laugh. Which was kinda bad because everytime I laughed, I coughed too. I've been spending time with Jon too, he'll be home soon then off to work at 4.. I hope I can handle this >.<

This blog was kinda depressing eh?

I was laying in bed last night, and remembed that people took pictures of a few weekends ago, I'm looking forward to looking at them :D hint hint Courtney

I'm looking forward to all the weekends and summer to come! I'm so greatful for these people for dragging me, it all started with Courtney, just planning to go out for coffee to catch up, then it led to games night, then church, then lunches!

I love it! I can't wait to see what adventures this summer will bring! Its going to be a great year, maybe a few bumps along the way.

Speaking of bumps, I need to make a appointment with Dr. Stroke