Sunshine!

A brand new day!!


I am TGIF'ing that its friday.
I woke up, the sun was shining, I had a great little sleep last night, overall I just felt good.

As I was getting ready for bed last night, around 1am, Dustin messaged me asking if I wanted to play Catan tonight, I wanted to but I was so tired. We both ended up agreeing that it was far too late and we both had to get up early the next day.

Its so nice talking with people again. I was sure everyone forgot about me when I 'dropped off the face of the planet'. Feels great that I wasn't forgotten about. This year is going to be a good year. I can feel it.

It's just the little things that make a person feel good. It finally makes more sense to me, I have a whiteboard infront of me at the office and on it, it says

"Humans are powerful spiritual beings meant to create good on the earth. This good isn' actually aqccomplished in bold actions, but in singular acts of kindness between people. It's the little things that count, because they are more spontaneous and show who you truely are" Donnion Brinkley

Just everyday things. Like when Dustin was introducing everyone around the table. He made a little comment about my laugh. That made me feel good, because he took the time to mention that I have a unique laugh and its garenteed to make a person smile.

It made my heart smile.

I stayed in bed for a bit this morning after getting Jon up for his lectures, then I got up and around, made scrambled eggs, checked my mail, made coffee. Perfect.

I get to work, nothing on my desk to do so a free day besides taking calls and whatnot. I checked out facebook, updated my status, realized that it was friday and realized that SMALLVILLE was on tonight. Yay. Jon has gotten me watching Smallville with him, to be honest, I think he just likes me watching it with him because I ask a lot of questions. He thinks its cute.

I'm trying to be more positive about things in my life. Over the past few weeks I've been hiding my true feelings, ignoring them if you will. They all escaped and things just went too far out of hand. I don't want that to happen again. I'm going to try to deal with things head on, I don't want things to build up and just put me in one big mess in the end.

I will see how that goes this weekend. I always try to pick fights with my boyfriend and it sure isn't healthy. I'm not going to press any buttons anymore, I want to be happy with him and I want him to be happy with me.

Now that thats cleared up.

Laurel just informed me that her kids (Who know me from highschool) Recommended me for the upcoming dramafest! YAY! I really liked Dramafest from the years where I went as a student and now they want me to chaparone! I've thought about going and volunteering on my own and just taking part in it to help out, I thought too much about it and decided that I wasn't ready.

BUT THIS! WHAHOOOOOOOO! I feel like I am ready now! How awesome is that? I feel like I can deal with my anxiety, I can force myself into large crowds and take part in things. I'm going to try and get in contact with the teacher who is taking this years improv club because I actually want to go!

It really depends on how much money I have in my budget to spend and how I'd get there and other little things to think about. I know its like the first week in May. I'll have money around that time. I'm so excieted!

Plus, how cool is it that a bunch of teenages would want ME to chaparone their trip to Dramafest? Thats awesome! I can't wait to find out more information if I can do this or not. This day just keeps getting better and better, hopefully I can get into contact with Jon because I woke up and he wasn't there, my messages on skype wouldn't go through, I don't think he had a full day of classes and I don't remember him waking me up to tell me that he was going for the day. I'm a little worried but I'm trying to stay positive!

Excluding several very worried filled text messages.

Anyways, thats how my day is going.