Hello :)

Alright. I'll make this short and sweet.

I need a place to express my feelings.

Few things about me.
- I have a mental illness
- I enjoy photography
- I like to write
- I like to play video games
- I like to help others

Moving on.

I'm a very shy person. I will tell you what I think of your straight forward. I try not to care what people think of me, but sometimes that doesn't work. I can get stressed easily. I'm a very determined person. I feel the need the prove myself in a lot of cases.

I'm going to start treating this like a real journal, there are days where I have time to care about how I type, things I want to say ect. There are also days where I just want to pour out my heart, to get things off my chest, to vent.


A little more you should know about me. I'm Holly, and I have anxiety. For the past years of my life, I have cut myself off from the outside world, lived behind closed doors, I'm scared of people, I'm scared of what people think of me and most of all I'm scared of failing.

Recently, I've become active in the CMHA (canadian mentle health association). I attend their meet and greet, a youth program, and a lunch and learn. This may sound like a easy task, but look at it from my prospective, I'm easily sent into a panic attack.

I love going to these meetings because I know it helps me, I love being there. Sounds like a small step but its still a step in the right direction for me. I was scared the first time I went to the meet and greet, but once I got there, people started talking to me and I felt more at ease.

Recently, these programs have shut down due to lack of funding from the government. This scares me as its one of the only things I feel like I'm holding onto to keep ahold of my sanity. Hopefully soon, they'll be back up and running but for now, I have to find other things to occupy my mind.

~Holly♥