Hope

After worrying and worrying, I went to my doctor today.

I hate waiting rooms, always so crowded so I asked the nurse if I could wait in the hall, she agreed. I was sitting there, by myself and I had no idea why my anxiety was so high. I thought about running in and telling them I had to leave but I knew I'd fight with myself if I left.

I got in the office. Talked to my doctor about my concerns. He told me he can't do anything about it and that I should visit my eye doctor. Okay. I then expressed that I was worried this could be glucoma, he said I needed to get my bloodwork done. I then expressed that I can't because my sleeping pattern is totally fricken. I told him that I tried everything he told me about changing it (pushing my bedtime back by 15 minutes everynight, relaxing.. ect) Nothing worked. He went on to express that there was nothing he could do for me. I even told him how high my anxiety has been and how depressed I've been. Nothing he could do. What about the drugs Dr. Stroke and I talked about? I don't want to put you on these as I feel you do not need them. Well thanks for nothing.

So, I went to Lurels office, we both talked to Joyce. We got me set up with an appointment with my psycohologist. She also worked her magic and left a message with a eye specialiest. Hopefully, I'll find out about that tomorrow.

I was talking with Dr. Stroke today. He basically put me on bed rest. He said I was too stressed out and stress could be whats causeing the problems with my eyes, the pains in my stomach and the pesky headaches I've been having.

I came home and went to bed. I slept for a little while and now my headahce is gone. I didn't realize how tired I really am. I'm going to catch upp on a lot of missed sleep. So..

I'm going to be on vacation for awhile =]

I'm hoping to go spend some time with a friend at university. I think it will be good for me. Just be around people again. Maybe that will work some of the kinks out of my life. anyways, thats all I have to say for now.

Take very good care everyone.