Sooth

Here I am.

I'm sitting here in my bed, trying to rid my mind of anything that could possibly keep me awake.
Jon is pretty sick with a terrible cold. He was up all night last night coughing, he went at 5am to get some medicine and decided it'd be best if he stayed home from uni for the day. I kept him company for the day. We stayed awake for awhile, then wanted a nap since both of us didn't get much sleep. Wouldnt you know it, I lay down and close my eyes, phone rings, it was my landlord, she wanted to know if they could come by to put my blinds up in the living, I said sure, because the maintence guy was upstairs working so he came down, tried to hook them up, only to find that my landlord measured wrong, she got 91 inch blinds, my window is 92 inch. Joy joy joy.

Off and on my mom kept calling me all day to check on me since I've been sick for the past few days. I appericate the concern but she didn't need to call every 10 minutes to ask if I was still sick. I'm feeling much better today.

Eventually, Jon and I got around to napping. He set his alarm for 4pm, I missed it, he missed it. I was woken at 4:30pm by my mother ringing the phone. Fantastic.

Oh, and for the past few days, I've noticed my laptop has become really, super laggy. I couldn't understand why. I then remembered that I updated AVG free to 9.0. I uninstalled and reinstalled AVG to see if that would fix anything. It didn't. I looked online for help and found out that many other people are having the same problem that I am. Some of their computers even crashed! No thanks. I uninstalled AVG and bought a antivirus. My laptop stopped lagging.

I have an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow. I'm scared and happy all at the same time. Mostly because the last time I saw him, he only told me to go to my mood groups and that I'd be better. Alright. I went to my mood groups at the time and they helped. Although, I think they helped because I had other things to go to when I was going to them, like my art class or writing group. Now, everything has ended and I feel like I hit rock bottom. I tried going back to my mood groups but they don't do the trick anymore.

I need to feel involved in something to keep my anxiety and depression under control. I talked to Lurel last week and she told me things were moving along with the funding and whatnot. She also said the moment she knows about my job, she'll call me and let me know. I really, really hope that its soon. I'm so tired of feeling this way.

I feel like experimenting with cooking. Tomorrow I think I'm going to bake some cookies. Hopefully I'll get up to my mothers house after my appointment to pick up some of my stuff and hopefully borrow her mixer. I can hardly wait.

I've been looking for a hobby to take my mind off of things. I was browsing around online for simple crafts and stuff. I stumbled upon a sewing community and I remembered that I had a sewing machine at home! I looked around and decided I'd love to try it again. When I use to sew, I made skirts and bags but I never thought of making plushies and stuff like that!

Also, I've been remembering some people I use to be friends with. I was talking to Courtney the other day about missing everyone and shutting everyone out of my life blah blah blah. I was suppose to go to her adverture thingie but I chickened out so I asked her out to coffee instead. Hopefully that will hold up because I'd love to discuss my faith with her. Shes a woman of God and shes one of the strongest people I know.

I think that clears my mind. Thats all for now. I'm going to try to sleep tonight because I have to be up in the morning to see Dr. Stroke. Hopefully my anxiety will be low, I won't be put on medication and he'll set some things up for me to go to. Cheers to new beginnings!


Goodnight everyone, take very good care and have a joyful day tomorrow