Wish

Today was better.

I didn't sleep one wink since I posted at 5am this morning! I'm so proud of myself for doing that. I don't know if I'm going to see the meteor shower yet because it will be going at its peak at about 4am so yeah. I don't know if I feel like wondering in the cold, dark, damp night in the middle of nowhere with the tide coming in.

I got a phone call from another psychologist. I might have a new group meeting to go to on thursdays which is perfect because Jon is at uni all day that day. We'll see how that works out, I'm going to call Lurel and talk to her about it.

Thats all for tonight, I'm going to crawl in bed. I was so tired around 10am today, I walked to my room to get my housecoat and it was like my bed was calling my name. I could feel the cool side of the pillow against my cheek, the smoothness of my sheets, the warmth.. everything. I resisted the temptation of a quick little nap so I could try to sleep tonight!

I didn't get around to making my vlog like I wanted to do today, but if I get a good nights sleep tonight I sure will do that tomorrow (hopefully)

I was talking on the phone with an old friend today. It was so nice hearing a familiar voice again. When I picked up the phone, I was flooded with tears. It was like this picture book playing through my mind of all the good memories I share with them. I think my eyes were watery when I hung up.

I'm slowly, starting to feel like my oldself again. I feel intouch with myself. I know I'm there, I can feel it, just a little bit out of reach. I want to laugh again. I miss my laugh. Does anyone even remember my laugh?

Oh and mood swings are terrible. end of story.

Goodnight everyone